Phonecall From Heaven ^.^

This is one moment in my life that's so simple but really meant the world to me.. For weeks i've been overwhelmed by thoughts, guilt, fears - basically everything - came up on me at once! I was really stressed out and didn't know what to do.. Didn't know how to act.. Didn't know what to decide.. Couldn't even handle the most simple common thing!

Several times i've struggled to solve that puzzle.. Many times i tried to search for answers.. But it just seemed that I'm going round in circles, with no answer to ease my troubles.. I didn't quit *glad i didn't* and kept on searching.. Those were the times when i prayed more than usual *haha that's so me* not to mention all the complaining to my Dear God - for giving me such problems - *which is also, so me, tsk tsk.. i'm terribly sorry for that*

Then one day, i woke up in the morning, quite early in fact *which is not so me haha* and found one message in my inbox.. Who'd text me at that time of day ?? And it just simply said "may i call u?" and i found me heart pounding so fast.. And then we had that talk.. That short little conversation, but full of meaning.. I felt this fire burning inside, and i was so excited during that talk.. And i knew, it was not the person, but it was GOD Himself talking to me at that moment.. "Were not our hearts burning within us while he talked with us ... " (Luke 24: 32) i really felt that rush that i searched the internet for this quote *haha i'm not really that religious kind who memorizes bible quotes, i don't even read the book =D workin on that, though* but for real.. I was so.. Speechless.. As in positive speechless.. Joyful speechless..

Well.. After this whole story and silly intermezzoes, what i'm *finally* trying to say is that, we tend to forget, how important we are to others.. We often get stuck in our own problems and issues, that we cannot see, that by helping others, we might find a solution for ourselves.. We often don't realize, that the smallest thing we say or do, can mean very much to other people.. So never forget to look around, choose wisely how to act or what to say, and truly open our eyes to the world, because..

We may be only one person in this whole world..
But we can mean the whole world to one person..

-dna-

Lesson #1 : Discover Yourself Through Others =)

Lately i've been thinking much about many many things in my life, including myself of course (wow this sounds so self-centered huh lol). All my life (24 years since i was born, haha) i've been trying hard to know ME a little more, but never really succeed until recently (can't say i'm done by now, though) =D

So many things happened in just such a short time.. All the good and bad things that's seen from my narrow point of view as "good" and "bad" are actually both good AND bad at the same time.. They say we're destined to have a beautiful life that GOD has planned for us, but all we see is messy ruined puzzles that don't even make sense.. *agreed! haha*

And of course this little curious girl inside of me have always been asking why so? how can i see the whole plan? why can't i see it? and it goes on.. But as i stepped out from this "teenager" thing, i was so astonished by all the good things i've missed.. Now i'm starting to understand a bit why things were said and done (can't say i don't regret them, though, but.. haha) at least now i have more patience for the beautiful troubles yet to come in my life..

One thing i learnt from all this is that we can really understand ourselves through our relationship with others.. *TRY THIS, IT REALLY WORKS* lol but seriously, it really does work.. Through every interaction with others, i never stop questioning, simply everything ! But then i found out who i really am.. That others function as mirrors to me.. All i like from them is who i wanna be, and all i dislike is who i avoid to be.. All i love from others is the personality that i show.. And all i hate in others is my "shadow" that i reject as a "part of me" but also shows when i'm under pressure..

This, i believe, is the first step we all should take to be a better person everyday, not only for ourselves, but also for others, mostly our beloved ones, and most important, for HIM who gave us life in the first place ^^

-dna-